As I finalize my transition to living in Seattle, Hawk Hill, the name of my farm and home in Missouri, has been sold. Hawk-Hill.com however, will stay online and I have many projects and tutorials planned for the coming months.

Early this fall, as my community gathered to mark the beginning of a new year and welcome new sojourners into our midst, I left. After a long season of Hawk Hill on the real estate market while I transitioned to and began to grow rooted in Seattle, I accepted an offer to purchase the house and land. With a third party arranging sale of the contents, I returned to the house less to gather belongings and pack up treasures and more for the purpose of naming and grieving the end of my time in a place that had been good for my soul in many ways.

Hawk Hill was, at some point in it’s 100 year old history, a commercial vineyard. Old bottles stowed and dusty in the back of one of the barns bore remembrance of the history. One gnarled and aged  grapevine remained entwined permanently as part of the fence around the stable. All the other grapevines had died or been removed, but this one remained. As I gardened my way through the first spring at Hawk Hill, I cared for this vine and felt a voice I believe to be God promising this property would see a vineyard restored in my time. Each spring I was determined to nurture this one remaining grape vine into a fruitful bounty and each fall I admitted defeat. Late freezes, marauding chickens, and a pony that developed a taste for grape leaves all conspired to foil my plans to restore this grapevine. In later years, I added new plantings from catalogs promising compatibility with my zone and aggressive growth- and each new vine failed.

It was not until I ventured to Seattle and began this new chapter that I recognized the fruitful harvest that had indeed been tenderly nurtured and brought maturation at Hawk Hill was, in fact, within myself. Hawk Hill was a place of beauty and comfort where I got to explore my gifts, use my body in creativity and nurturing the gardens, and most significantly where I grew the most psychologically. At Hawk Hill I came to understand and honor the wounded parts of myself and grow the ability to think and move in the world as an independent, kind, truth-telling woman.

As that chapter ends, I am thankful for the opportunity to stop tonight and thank God for all the blessings and difficulties I experienced in this place. The last papers were signed this morning and tonight new owners call Hawk Hill home. I bless them in their journey and hope the house is a home to them in seasons of joy and growth as it was for me.

As for this blog, it turns out I have much to blog about as I decorate, create, and explore my world in Seattle. I have many posts scheduled and planned for the coming months, so while Hawk Hill as my home may be over, for me, Hawk-Hill.com as my blog will be around for a long time to come as I continue to welcome sojourners on my creative adventures in decor and lifestyle. Worth noting, my current life as a grad student has birthed some new blogging adventures. LindsayBraman.com catalogs my doodle notes and tips and tricks for taking doodle notes and/or bullet journaling, LiveToTellTheStory.com is serving as a repository for my grad school papers, and HopeFromAshes.com houses my (very occasionally posted) prose and personal essays.


As I Remember Hawk Hill

Not visiting Hawk Hill during or after the estate sale was an intentional choice for me. As I move into a new chapter, I decided to arrange my visit so that I could preserve Hawk Hill in my memory as I knew it- cozy and whimsically decorated – rather than cold and empty of the creativity and care I invested in my decor. Since I’ve ending my AirBnB listing, I want to preserve those photos and here seems like a great place to store those images of my beloved home.

 

sunny art studio in home
My Art Studio was set up in a enclosed sunroom and featured vintage furniture, a sawhorse table I made, and a real-life-pinboard of inspiring art.

 

A long and narrow vintage school library table functioned as my dining table under the watch of a giant clock
A long and narrow vintage school library table functioned as my dining table under the watch of a giant clock

 

Branches added whimsy to this otherwise awkwardly tall old sears-catalog living room.
Branches added whimsy to this otherwise awkwardly tall old sears-catalog living room. Magnetic Tegu blocks stuck magnetically to a vintage tray were a fun distraction for kids and adults.
My chicken coop in it's prime
My chicken coop in it’s prime

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Front gates and a long driveway add privacy and charm to this brick cottage
Front gates and a long driveway added privacy and charm to this brick cottage

 

Dining room view opens into soothing blue living room
Dining room view opens into soothing blue living room

 

The result of my $300 renovation, this bathroom used to be peach walls with peach tile!
The result of my $300 renovation, this bathroom used to be peach walls with peach tile!
This stable style garage features planter boxes (see DIY) and galvanized buckets used as flower planters.
This stable style garage features planter boxes (see DIY) and galvanized buckets used as flower planters.
Equestrian Wet Bar
This room was my “next project” for years but never got started before my departure. This weird wet bar was handy in the entrance as a place to wash garden produce- my dream was to convert to a white-on-white mudroom with farmhouse sink and tile.

 

feminine master bedroom for single girls
My “mistress bedroom” was just the right size for a single, and for the first time in my life I chose to really play up the femininity of my bedroom here. Floor to ceiling curtains behind my bed concealed a window for better furniture arrangement options, and a DIY flouncy ruched curtain added feminine drama. This embossed floral vintage metal bedframe was my very first piece of “grown up” furniture I ever purchased, back when I was still in college.

 

Brown master bathroom with vintage tile work for a 1920's feel
Brown master bathroom with vintage tile work for a 1920’s feel

 

1940's kitchen with original cabinets. Upgraded Anthropologie knobs add a playful pop of color this vintage white on white kitchen.
1940’s kitchen with original cabinets. Upgraded Anthropologie knobs add a playful pop of color this vintage white on white kitchen.
kelly green master bedroom
Abundant light and wide baseboards means freedom to explore with color. Here, a kelly green bedroom features white furniture

 

A bright yellow laundry room with chippy painted floors and boot racks.
A bright yellow laundry room with chippy painted floors and boot racks.

 

This turquoise double twin bedroom featured pottery barn bedding and an original 100 year old light fixture.
This turquoise double twin bedroom featured pottery barn bedding and an original 100 year old light fixture.

 

Simple homemade porch decorations transition effortlessly from fall to winter and into early spring.
Side porch with simple homemade decorations that transition effortlessly from fall to winter and into early spring. I’m low maintenance, so preferred theses DIY faux wool blankets and simple non-holiday specific decorations.

whimsical missouri_deck_and_plantsBack Deck overlooks tree-sheltered backyard

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Lime green painted vintage front door on a brick house
The subject of my very-first-ever blog post, my lime green door was always memorable to guests.

 

faux barnwood painted shower stall
Upstairs bathroom featuring, of course, a chandelier. Also, notice the shower stall. Rather than the expense of replacing this ugly shower in a bathroom no one used, this shower was painted faux barnwood.

 

Breakfast nook and bay window- notice the vintage faucet handle used as a ceiling fan pull
Breakfast nook and bay window- notice the vintage faucet handle used as a ceiling fan pull

 

An ancient mulberry shielded a wicker seating area. An old wood fireplace mantle was added for a photography session.
An ancient mulberry shielded a wicker seating area. An old wood fireplace mantle was added for a photography session.

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  1. I have quietly been following your inspirations for a few years now Lindsay! I love everything about your artsy whimsical view on life! I even envy your big adventure in Seattle! What with my being a small town 60yr young girl now living on a farm in a very remote area of the Blue Ridge Mountains in Virginia! Your ‘Goodbye to Hawk-Hill’ greeted me in my email just now and I read every single word. Soaked in every heart loved picture of your time there. I felt your pain in saying goodbye yet your exuberance in your continuing hello to your new educational life in Seattle! You have so inspired me during your days at Hawk-Hill and I expect to enjoy your new journey in Seattle just as much. Thank You for sharing your world with us! I feel so enriched in the little I know about you. Your creativity reaches me way out here on my little VA farm!

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